5 - every word feels like a shooting star

" PEENISSSSS!"

- 500 days of summer

i have to get back to blogging soon after my exams are all over and attachments are all so done and done-ded. and its gonna be quite a while.

till then, i'm going to universal studios this friday. so hyped up! and perhaps wavehouse? weeehoo.

okbye.

4 - water and a flame

tgif. nothing much happened at school on the last day. 2 hrs of lecture and that was it. random meetings couldnt happen and also disappointments filled with a whole lot of wishful thoughts that will bring me even furthur down. but i dont want anyone to be hurt by what im going through now. i dont meant to be it that way. and it seems like, my actions do hurt people when i tell truth so i shan't say much.

sometimes i just wish i am not experiencing this thing that im going through. this time my hormones? i dont think so but i have been sick for the past few days. side effects plus cramps maybe? perhaps the exam blues? or just being plain lazy and worthless all the time? i've become more unfair towards others which results me in being selfish? what the hell im going through right now, i dont even know. sometimes i even think i have split personalities. (hah)

but so much for my happy ending, it doesn't seem to turn out that way. all i want to do is just help people to be way better than what they are and if that's not appreciative enough, i don't even know where my effort lies. a whole mountain of it. and this doesn't always go to one person, but a few who have shown their inappreciativeness. unlucky thing is my sharing doesn't seem to come out with caring.

i dont know whether there's something wrong with me for being caring or my type of caring seems too much for them to handle.

and now, i have to focus on my studies.

can't wait to de stress tomorrow with girlfriends and a guy friend over at his place.

movies, swim and awesome dinner, please make me happy.

3 - cold showers are awesome

finished school freaking early today and tuition was canceled. planned to start my caffeine addiction at the nearest coffee hub or library but the mood wasn't there. i was tired carrying around 3 thick lecture notes and a laptop with a bottled water and had no companion so i went back home instead and had a very very cold shower which was refreshing enough and yet, my elongated hands have yet to open any of the manuals to even read. my eyes are droopy and all i want to do is be a sloth and sleep. can somebody motivate me?

just saw my group's hip hop video and i wanna say congrats to us. we did our best and had a really fun time making up moves that were just too childish and weird enough but i had fun. pictures have been loaded to my fufu and i bet im gonna post it somewhere later in this blog.

in fact, i feel so darn busy that i dont really have time to collate my thoughts all in this blog that i just wanna start a photoblog or maybe none at all? my fickle minded mind wants to change this skin to something else while my body just wants its beauty sleep.

and after reading all this again, i just find out i'm fcuking lazy.

TO BED!

2 - two is better than one

January has slipped by me FAST LIKE PRONTO LIKE WHOOSH LIKE POOF LIKE *SOUND OF SPRINKLES ALL OVER MY HEAD* i didnt even have time to update my blog.

why? cos all the awesome events which took over 95% of my brain cells to plan happen for the january babies. lots and lots of surprises. i was only left with 5% of my heart and soul in school either stoning or sleeping. being unproductive, coming out with nicknames for people like dida which became didaehdildo. -________-

february and its time to save up ALL my money. apparently i didnt for the past few days. i had yusrin's bday, my mum and my dad's consecutively since 2nd feb. i have yet to polish up my studying skills. which reminds me i have 2 practicals next week with 2 presentations left undone in my desktop. (NOTE TO SELF:WHAT THE FCUK YOU DOING NASYITA?!?!?!?!?!?!) Imagine all 4 on the same day - APPARENTLY THAT IS NOT A DREAM.

adding on my mocks are next week too. my notes are fluttering all over my study table. i dont know which is which. tuition is my only source of money. i'm saving for those shoes in cineleisure's rockstar. yummeh.

not forgetting to reconnect to the people i've lost touch. i am missing you loads. to spend quality time with boyfee, which apparently i have, had and gonna.

February, have mercy on me.

1 - now its back at one.

2009 has been a sucky one indeed but after all the shits i've been through and all the drama that has happened, i've emerged as a stronger person and is more mature rather than gullible like i have always been. thanks to 2009 i've learnt a lot about life and how you should never underestimate people and also overestimate as a matter of fact. 2009 has been a great leap of improvements and not so improvements, but all in all, the lesson learnt was really thoughtful and i've learnt that when you fall, you only have yourself to take baby steps and the only encouragement you have is from yourself.

2010 is gonna be one hell of a ride. i'm turning the big ONE EIGHT. lots of responsibilities but yet its still too early to tell. its the time where i feel like i can do it but actually i can't. and its also the time of the year where chances only come once, so might as well make the best out of it. but hopefully, i will stay true to myself and i will try not to change much until people who were close to me thinks that i am a total stranger (but who actually cares anyway? their busy with their own lives)

2010 is also gonna be the year where i get close to the new friends i've made and know that they will be having your back. they also will be the friends that you are gonna stick through your life. and when you look back at your college years, they are the ones who made it meaningful.

2010 is also the year where i am going to rekindle the relationships with my best friends who used to be there but now they're very busy that we can only talk on the net. namingly, the people in 4D, the three monyets and the princess who loved a frog. Not forgetting to be true to the people who has been with me for the past 4 years.

2010 is gonna be the time where i change.
for the better? always will be
for the worst? maybe, no one knows the future, rite?